went for gown selection today... have selected otr wedding gwn which is supposedly new.... am doin mtm evening gown .. selected dark purply colour for it... hmm i actually wanted pink since pink is my super duper fav!!! but designer says doesnt suit me leh... hmmm nw im stil thinking abt it.. thinking of getting pink.. but he said doesnt suit me... so shld i go ahead and choose what i like? or choose wad he says suits me?? he wil let me knw when the gown is ready... hopefully it turns out nice if nt im goin to really cry... also i tot selectin gown wld be very fun and exciting.. i was so wrong... dunno why i jus felt like normal.. like choosing dress to wear to somewhere... maybe cos im so fat that they dun have that many to let me try... *siGhx* i feel like nt enough lo.. though i did settle on 2 of them, i stil feel like nt satisfied... feeling a bit moody also.. *siGhx* helped Bi to choose his jacket n pants... he's making ivory coloured jacket n pants and wil otr black jacket and pants... hmmm.. hope all goes well... more or less settled with the clothes le... initially photoshoot supposed to be end of next mth.. buden nt enuf time to make the gown.. so decided to push til mid nov... gd becos more time to lose wgt as well as earn money...

works... well work lo... feel hai... dunoo i jus feel like askin doc to take me off the on call roster... i really feel that it's disrupting my life.. i wld prefer office hr.. i dun mind the pay cut... and lesser pay.. as long as have fixed hrs of rest and dun feel so tired... i jus dun like being woken up to do hsecalls... its jus nt for me.. have to speak to doc bah... *siGhx* hope cn wrk sumting out.. wish me luck...

sarang hae bi